It sounds like you do need some counseling, I like the website that nightwish gave you. I think I will check it out myself. Though I do meditate and practice deep breathing exercises. We have another site that is free and very helpful.
http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome. I have read that many of the members find this to be very helpful. It is free so take advantage of it.
I hope that things work out for you. It is hard raising two teenagers and it sounds like things have really been difficult for you. I hope that you can get them to start listening to you.
Keep posting as we are all here for you.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies