So, I was wondering, before and after you have depression, how do you connect with people?
Before depression and such, I could connect with people. I had "best friends" that I would do stuff with and not a worry in the world.
NOW, I dont connect with people AT ALL. Im like a "loner". I can talk more to people I've known my whole life as opposed to best friends I've had for 6 or 7 years... My current friends dont feel like "friends" they just feel like people in my life. The friend 'quality' is lost because I dont connect to them.
I feel this is a problem because its hard for me to let people in and explain to them how I am, etc. I think people I have known longer would see the changes in me more than someone I have only been friends with for a couple years or whatever... ya know?
Its just hard for me to see the people around me. Like I pass people in the halls, but they really arent there, its just me, the loner..
That seems so stupid to me...but I just cant CONNECT with ANYONE and its VERY upsetting. I have a HUGE GREAT WALL OF CHINA standing in front of me and no way to get over it.
Can anyone relate? What am I supposed to do....? (thats for the support)
Lyrica(15 months,but working on get out right now) and Paxil(about 6+- months)
Fibromyalgia, Depression, Anxiety, Panic Attacks-currently in therapy
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