i am sorry people but i am not coping. so much is happening, trying to think yet my mind is awash with a distorted feeling of chaos. maybe i should fill you in. i lost the women that i loved nearly 4 years ago. we met in a psych hospital, our love and compassion was honest and true. when i got out, she got out a week earlier, i got a cab, went in and the rest...........we fell in love. 4 months later she passed away, yes she was unwell, and i remember that she told me that she would not live long. she died in my arms, well she lived in them too!! i have given her and i the greatest luv, i have set her free. so i am seeing someone now, the situation is tricky as she suffers from severe epilepsy and has had a stroke at the tender age of 13. she has a carer with her at all times.
her family at the start said i was perverted, i was threatened with extrerme violence, i was continually verbally assualted by her mother. i have and are taking things slow. i have met her mother who refuses to speak to me, other family members have been somewhat better lately. i feel that i am paying for the sins of a previous partner who did her very wrong. u get the picture. her service providers were for about six months telling me when and were i could meet, improving slowly. i have been nothing bust honest and compassionate and committed. i am worried of advising my girlfriend of the magnitude of my depression, one carer is very close to her mother, but i refuse to conform to this carer. i refuse to hide me. i will advise her of my deepening depression. starting new meds, wish me luck. have a few concerning medical issues as well, some family stuff also, but that is for another time. thanx, i appreciate your assistance and support.