Hello Raniah, Karen and Aurora,
Thank you so much for your kind replies. As a matter of fact I'm thinking of finding a way out of Spain and yes, another european country wuold be the answer; it's just that wherever you go there's money problems, so I have to plan it very good so I won't fall into the same thing. Yes, it's sad to hear that you can't find a job not because you are not talented or trainned enough but for where you come from. Sadly, the option of having economic support from my family is not an option anymore because they've been helping me for almost 5 months and they think (and they're very right) it's enough and they've reached their limit (not because they don't want to but because they also have to maintain themselves, which is completely normal and I don't blame them at all) As for my husband, he is working for periods of time, but what he makes is not enough for the both of us to survive. It's almost as if this situation is just a question of showing who has the power and that upsets me so much...
Replying to Aurora's question, I'm from Paraguay. Yes, it makes quite a difference being from there, which is a mall country, than being from Brasil or Argentina. This is also a problem because Paraguay is "in the same bag" of countries that come to Spain for elemental jobs (taking care of elder people, work force, babysitting, etc), like Bolivia, Ecuador, etc. But this is really not my case. I've made a Masters and a Postgraduate degree in my field and I'm more than qualified (I've even studied here in Spain thanks to a scholarship I got because of my achievements in Paraguay); so, you see how this is so frustrating to be rejected just because you're from somewhere else, even speaking the same language?
Replying to Raniah's question, I'm not a very religious person because I had bad experiences with church, where I went looking for counseling and they were just interested in how much money I could leave or how many days a week I had available for being a disciple. I felt it was almost like signing a contract with them. That's concerning an evangelic church; and concerning a catholic church it was even worse because I felt like they gave me a template-sheet question, the same as they give it to everyone else... so, I son't know. I'm very sorry I had such bad experiences with church. I believe in God and I pray every night, but I don't trust church people anymore. Nevertheless I will find out about
the alumni support from my University. Maybe they have someone there who can help. As for the immigration support, there none that works here. If there were any it would be a place where you have to go at 6 in the morning to make a cue until the
opening time (9am) and then wait for at least 4 more hours (if you don't pass the 2pm closing time). I've also lived in the States and I see that it's SUCH a big difference concerning social services or any service in general. For example here you call to compain about
your internet that's not working, that how could that be and they just tell you "well, if you're not happy you can just cancel your account" (of course this is said in a very bad tone of voice)...
I must say that it's not the same all over Spain. The main problem is in the region of Catalunya, where I am (where Barcelona is) and also in Madrid, due to the ammount of immigrants that these regions have. I don't know, I just think it's not good to think less of a person just because you're from somewhere else. The only good thing I can take from this is that now I know where all this bad way of doing things and lack of respect existing in south america came from. I was blaming the continent but now I see that the half native side of us was the one keeping us sane after all....500 hundred years of stealing, raping and destroying everything they could in America and they still haven't learned their lesson...unbelievable
Once again thank you for the concern. You're being of so much help for me right now and it's good to talk to people who pray and care for you. All my love to you,
Post Edited (gaby_paola) : 3/30/2009 2:38:15 AM (GMT-6)