I'm so sorry to hear about all you've been through. You've turned to a good place, the people here at HW are so caring and understanding.
Have you gone to a doctor about all that you've been through? Do you take any medicines to help with the PTSD? Did you go to any kind of counseling for the rape? Knowing some of these things could maybe help us know what the next step to helping you might be.
You are obviously a strong person, given what all you have been through.
I'm sure others will come along with more advice. Hang in there!
31 yr old female-dx with Crohn's in '97 after emergency resection and appendectomy, 2nd resection '05
Currently on Humira, Prilosec, Effexor, Seroquel, Calcium, Vit D, sublingual B12; phenergan, ultram, clonazepam as needed