Hi there and welcome to HealingWell.
I honestly think that you need some counseling. You have to get this out and deal with it in the proper way or it will drive you crazy. Both issues. I would talk to your doctor and see what they recommend. This is going to eat you alive if you don't. There is nothing weak about
seaking help. Remember that.
And remember that we are here for you.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies