From your post, I would say that seeking therapy may be a good idea for you. Maybe feeling so isolated so much of the time, means you aren't clearing your head of things, or having enough time to talk it out. Maybe a counselor would make that a bit easier for you.
Have you got another asthma medication to control your asthma symptoms? I suffer from asthma myself, and find that for me Serevent inhalor seems to do a lot to keep it under control, meaning I don't need Ventolin as often. I think sorting your asthma out is also important, because I know from experiance that not feeling your best can have a big impact on how you feel mentally.
I hope the Paxil change works soon. Sometimes anti-depressants can just stop working, after years of working great. Maybe the dose increase will be enough to kick start it back to helping you again.
Hope you're feeling better soon
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Diagnosed with: Cystic Fibrosis, Asthma, ABPA, Clinical Depression, Mild Liver Cirrohsis, Mild Osteopenia, Erythema Nodosum. Waiting for final diagnosis on Muscular Dystrophy type symptoms.
Medication: Creon 10,000, Vitamins A,D+E, Serevent, Salbutamol, Paracetamol, Ondansetron, Nefopam, Ursodeoxycholic Acid, Lofepramine, Slow-Sodium, Azithromycin, Ciprofloxacin, Omeprazole, Tobi Ineb, Fresubin Liquid Feed, Skandishakes. I use PEP device as my physio.
Had a Port-a-cath fitted on chest wall since Nov 05
Sometimes, I feel that I should go and play with the thunder - then I get scared and run away.