umm i don't really know what to say, or where to begin...but hey, i just joined here after finding it on google... i joined here because i dunno what else to do....i was told by someone at my college that i really need to go to a councillor, but i can't because my mum doesn't believe in stuff like this and if she found out, she wouldn't understand... i just feel so weird...i'm really scaring myself now, it's getting out of hand so i thought i'd ask you what you think.
I've had a few issues in the past, had eating disorders (anorexia -> bulimia -> binge eating disorder when i was fifteen then developed anorexia again last year aged 17), and i'm not sure, i think i've been depressed pretty much most of the time since then really. I've tried to myself three times but my mum just won't acknowledge it and says i was just "being silly" and stuff like that. She thinks i'm fine now, because i don't even know how i feel myself. Before, i felt like crap, but at least i knew what i was feeling. Now i just feel kind of numb, as if i feel nothing, and then i get scared because i feel like i should care, whether i feel good or bad about life at least it would be a feeling. I just can't take this anymore and i don't know what to do. Please help me... i really don't think going to a councillor is a good idea, i don't think i could just start talking about myself to a person in such a formal setting. Please help me.
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