You are ready to boil over. I think you need to get a grip on things. I know that not knowing answers to your questions is driving you crazy, but you honestly need to try to get this out of your mind for now. Especially when you can't do anything about
it at this time. There is no sense in being miserable at the present. Try to relax and make the best of what you have at this moment. Be in the now. Dwelling on this is only making things worse. And it is useless energy spent.
I wish that I could explain how important it is to live in the moment and put these disturbing thoughts out of your mind. You really don't have to think about
it. You know that the situation exists, and you have no power at this time to get answers. So try to be happy with what is surrounding you. I can feel the frustration in your post. That is a normal reaction, but leave it behind you for the moment and try to enjoy what you do have.
I truly hope that you will be able to get back into your classes, but if you can't you have other options, you just can't see them at this time due to your frustration.
And what good did it do to destroy your most cherrished items? None. It just made you feel worse I am sure. We tend to hurt ourselves for situations that we can't control, so just try to control the environment around you. And try to be happy. I know that sounds stupid, but it can be done with the power of thought.
I am thinking about
you and hoping that things work out for the best.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies