hey everybody, i was recently diagnosed with pi-ibs, and i cannot get these thoughts out of my mind, its like the thought of ending it is comforting to me because, if my pain, discomfort, etc ever gets too bad or lasts too long that i know i can just end my life and it would be over, i do not believe in god or any other rhyme or reason to how the universe/ earth works so it seems to easy. i have never experienced this before and it seems the anxiety and worrying about my symptoms is taking over my life and the only comfort i have is the thought i could end it that easily. I still have hope i will get better but after 4 weeks of this i just do not see an end in site, i see my life slipping, girlfriend problems cuz i never want to do ne thing and i am always down because of my illness, my grades are slipping and dragging my 3.8 down, my goals are slipping, i no longer think about my aspirations and dreams, just whether or not i will feel better tomorrow or not, i cannot sleep, i dont know what to do i feel like such a weak person inside, ppl deal with things 10 times worst then me and find a way to fight through it but i am not strong enuff to fight this. i love food and it kills me to see stuff i cannot eat, i look around and i become extremely jealous and angry that the ppl around me all have working normal digestive systems even though i should appreciate the blessings i have had in life. i am 19 years old and have never dealt with these emotions before i do not know how to combat em, i keep on slipping further and further into it. What should i do to reverse this cycle, the thing is my ibs is the root of the problem, without curing the ibs, how am i suppose to get rid of the feelings that come with it??