Guess What?! I have some news I wish to share with you all... A lot of you that were around this time last year probably remember me having a hard time with doing a speech for English class. And having to ask my teacher to let me deliver my speech to her instead of in front of class and it was this HUGE deal...right..
Well, guess what! I have the same teacher this year for AP English...well, our assignment was to memorize a sonnet written by Shakespeare and say it in front of the class! Then, we had to write a parody(which is like a poem that pokes fun at another poem) and we had to just read it to the class. So, I had to go today...I have worked on memorizing my poem the last couple of days. And today was the day. I told the teacher that I wanted to go first which was a big thing for me, obviously!
So, we could stand up or sit down in the front of the class. I chose to stand up, the first to do so. I said my poem, only pausing once or twice(even though I knew the whole thing through!) And I ended up making a 95!
But, the thing is, I felt really bad cause this one girl was so upset about having to do it, she first went off to the bathroom and came back and then she kept messing up and even cried. And then another girl had to go and she even started crying. And the others were complaining to the teacher about how stressful she made our lives and she felt horrible cause she actually made 2 of her AP students cry at the same time! And she didnt think the poem thing was going a big deal!
But, I was SO incredibly proud of myself because I went first and made the choice to stand up in front of everyone, just for the experience. And I did good on it! I was SO excited I couldnt stop smiling... And I didnt even feel it was a big deal. It was the good kind of anxiety rather than the kind I had last year! Apparently my medicine is helping me. Which I have noticed since I started taking it months ago...but the thing is:
I DID IT!!!!! ANd it was AWESOME! I was SO happy and SO proud of myself! I told her that afterwards and she said I did a really good job and that I had come such a long way and that she was really proud of me as well! Which made me feel SO amazing!
So, I had to run and tell you all about it!
Lyrica(15 months on, but now officially off of it!) and Paxil(about 6+- months)
Fibromyalgia, Depression, Anxiety, Panic Attacks-currently in therapy
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
"Im going to
smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."