I am so sorry your feeling down and kick that "stinkin thinkin" to the curb as you are a worthy person and remember we control our lives so it is time to get up and put one foot in front of the other.
No use dwelling on the past, it is over so please do start to move forward and do not try so hard to find "that perfect person". Love happens all on it's own when you least expect it. It may come and go in your life but you will experience it.
Most of us dream of that perfect person and when we meet the right person that is good but remember you are an individual and yes you want and need love in your life but you stand alone just fine also. You are a strong person and love will find you.
Trust me on this one. It just happens.
Take care my young friend. Remember to take it slow and keep on moving toward the light at the end of the tunnel.
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