hi ruth, I'm very sad to hear how you tried to take your life a few times, some of us here have been through similar things, so I'm sure you will get some good advice and understanding here. I have tried taking my life two times already, but thanks to GOD's help and sign's I didn't, and hopefully never will again. it's better to let GOD decide when it's our time to go than do it ourselfs speeding up the process, we should let things take their time the natural way.
Ruth could you share with us a little more about
you? like what is it that that fuels your depression? did you have a rough childhood? or are you running into some bad difficulties in your life that keep you depressed? well maybe if you look into the root cause of your depresion you understand and discover new ways to fight back, and we can help you if you decide to share with us. offcourse I understand if you don't feel like doing this here, maybe you feel this isn't the ideal place to do so, maybe you feel it's better to keep it with your therapist. but remember you have nothing to loose as this is an anonymouse forum and we never judge people here for what they have bin through or have done.
I hope that you can find some way to heal your depression, It's good that you are trying, by taking the medications that you don't like, your taking big steps and seeking help/therapy. you are brave to do this, you should be proud of yourself, because you are smart enough to understand that you have to do something to fight back. afterall it's so eazy to just give up and take your life down, you are doing the right thing and you have our full support.
please keep us updated on how things are going, be it good or bad news we still want to hear it , and we want to help you.
Lastly, remmeber you may not have to take the medication forever, for some people they just need it for small period of time like 2-6 months till they get better. it's true that for some it may take longer, and in some cases forever but you don't know what will happen in your case, I would just take things one at a time and try to relax, god bless you!
Post Edited (Akram) : 5/5/2009 8:06:21 PM (GMT-6)