I’m very sorry to hear your news. As with many things, ‘knowing in advance’ doesn’t necessarily soften the blow when it comes, and I know you must be experiencing a terrible sense of loss. Please accept my heartfelt sympathy and sincere prayers.
I hope you will give yourself some time to grieve this loss. I understand why you are feeling uncomfortable with people’s questions and comments, and it always surprises me – in an unpleasant way – how insensitive and callous people can be about
someone’s life situation. I went through that when I left my ex-husband, and some of the comments that people offered to me regarding my marriage and subsequent divorce either knocked the wind out of me or reduced me to tears. We cannot control what others think about
us, but we *can* control our view of ourselves. I have read many of your posts since I arrived at HW, and all of them have been full of wisdom and sensitive advice to others. It’s evident by your approach and the content of your messages that you are a highly intelligent individual, both in the mental and the emotional sense, and I would imagine that this brief view I’ve had merely scratches the surface. You have a lot to be proud of in your personal attributes, and anyone would be lucky to hire someone with your abilities and interpersonal skills.
If I recall, you have training and experience as an educator (I hope my memory of this is correct!). I would imagine that this would carry a lot of transferable skills, which could be applied to any number of positions. This should give you a healthy edge on the competition out there in the job market. If you were able to choose whatever you wanted, would you go back to teaching, or perhaps be involved somehow with the education system, as a curriculum specialist or program coordinator (for example)?
I would also think that someone with your background would make an excellent HR professional. You certainly have given some valuable advice to other members in difficult employment situations.
Do you have any particular skills which you direct towards hobbies or creative pursuits? If so, perhaps you could teach something privately to children or adults in order to provide yourself with some extra income. I am also wondering if you might want to offer your services to others as a tutor.
These are just a few thoughts for you, and since I don’t know the specifics of any jobs you’ve had, I may be offering suggestions which are redundant or unnecessary. I also suspect that you have done a lot of thinking on your own, and maybe you’re just looking for something to earn some extra cash while you continue to look for a more permanent or meaningful position. Whatever the case, please know that you are in my prayers, Frances. You may not have adequate support from your family there, but we will give you all the support we can from our family here.
P.S. Please don’t ever call yourself a failure, Frances. I have a great deal of admiration for you, and hold you in very high esteem.
Living one day at a time.