Good morning, Trying. I think I’m getting a better picture of the situation now, but please correct me if I’m misunderstanding you.
From what I gather here, you and your wife have both been on Wellbutrin in the past, and you are attributing some of your wife’s recent behaviour
, and some of your own emotional changes, to the fact that the course of Wellbutrin was discontinued. I took Wellbutrin myself many years ago, and I did not have this experience after I stopped taking it. Perhaps another member here has had an experience similar to yours and can comment on this. As with all meds, everyone is different in how they respond to treatment and likewise for the after-effects or weaning-off process. What was your doctor’s response to this idea? You mentioned that one doctor you saw attributed your emotional changes to the fact that you are ‘getting older’, but I’m not clear about
whether this is the same doc you referred to as ‘your doctor’ or not.
You mentioned some things about
your mother, and your fear that perhaps you inherited some of her issues and/or anxiety problems. I would imagine that is a possibility, based on my own experiences in my family and the various posts I’ve read from other members about
inherited problems. However, I’m certainly not a professional, and I would address these concerns with the psychiatrist when you see him/her next month. Whether or not your struggles are based on heredity, it’s really good that you’re getting some help and support for yourself. Separation and divorce are extremely stressful, and loaded with all kinds of emotional turmoil.
I’m also happy for you that you have several means of coping with stress on your own, by working out and paying attention to diet, praying and meditating, playing the guitar, etc.. I hope you don’t mind me saying so, but as far as spending time looking up medical information on the internet re: your condition, I have found that doing so can actually increase anxiety, because there is so much “worst case scenario” information out there. This has been discussed quite a bit on the Anxiety & Panic Disorders forum here at HW, so I know I’m not alone in this. Anyhow, of course that is your decision……I’m just offering a suggestion to help you.
I’m still not clear on where you stand as far as wanting to get back together with your wife, but I’m not trying to pry, either. I do know that I struggled with mixed emotions after I separated from my husband, even though it was clear to me and to everyone else that the relationship was detrimental to my safety and my health. Being in love can cloud a person’s judgment, in my opinion anyhow, and I am hoping that your psychiatrist can help you to sort out your feelings.
I don’t think you’re “idiotic” for writing long posts and hashing out all the circumstances and feelings you’re experiencing, and I doubt that your therapist will think that you’re “psycho”. I think you’re going through a tremendous amount of upheaval in your life, and it’s understandable that you have a lot to think about
and write about
I hope that things will become more clear to you as you move forward, and I also hope that the assistance and advice of your lawyer will help to put things into perspective for you. I wish you the best, and hope you will continue to post as you feel up to it.
Living one day at a time.