I've had experience with a few therapists, and it took me a while to find the right one for me. Once I found her, I felt that I was making progress pretty much immediately. I realize that everyone's experience with depression and with therapists is different......but I do wonder if maybe this person is not a good match for you. Only you can decide that, of course. I'm just going by what you've said.....things like, "I'm starting to think that it's not making a difference", "therapy is going very strangely", "I'm not sure she is being 100% serious"....etc..
Re: the lack of sleep, I can totally relate to that! I've had troubles with insomnia throughout my life. AND...I find that adequate sleep makes all the difference in the world as to how I am able to cope with things, my mood, and generally my whole outlook on my situation. I would say that should be your first priority, even before deciding what to do about
the therapist. I use all sorts of things now to help me sleep....meditation, relaxation breathing, soft music/relaxation CDs.....and I do find that prayer helps me to relax and give up the troubles of the day so that I can unwind myself enough to fall asleep. I also have noticed that the more exercise and fresh air I get during the day, the more likely I am to have a decent sleep at night. Those are just a few suggestions. I hope you can find a way to get some rest, because that will help you to deal with your daily struggles. And I also hope that you will be able to find a more compatible therapist, if you decide to change. I wish you sweet dreams and peaceful slumber.
Living one day at a time.