Ive been in therapy since early Feb...I cant tell if its helping or not. Im starting to think thats its not making a difference. She keeps asking me what makes me feel depressed. I DONT KNOW. I simply dont know... So, perhaps its all about
my chemicals. Maybe I do have a chemical imbalance and thats the reason for the way I feel, not specific. Im just not sure, cause therapy is going very strangley. Im not sure she is being 100% serious and really taking it in. Shes not encouraging me the way my school counselor did. She doesnt offer advie as to what I can do to help myself feel better. I just realized that she doesnt do that! lol Realization... hmm....
So, is it working? I wonder.... How long does it take to see a difference? Im going to assume its different for everyone...but I just wonder how long its going to take me...if/when Im going to feel some relief.
Im having more bad days now and often I think of things I shouldnt. Im just feeling really discouraged and I needed to talk about it some so here I am.... I really want to go to sleep, but I have been having problems sleeping lately. Im so exhausted but cant/dont get any sleep.. What am I supposed to do? I feel as if I have exhausted all the options, good and bad. What do I do next? Live with it, deal with it...?? What am I supposed to do....? ='[
Anyways, I just needed to talk about it, so I did. I appreciate the support. Take Care. The weekend cant come any faster...
Lyrica(15 months on, but now officially off of it!) and Paxil(about 6+- months)
Fibromyalgia, Depression, Anxiety, Panic Attacks-currently in therapy
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
"Im going to
smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."