NW, sweety it takes time to heal. I thought I loved a man, we were engaged even. One day I saw him in the store with some kids and some lady. I decided to keep from a far and watch, he seemed beyond friends with the lady. I confronted him at work the next day, he told me he was not at the store. I started asking his co-workers (he didnt know I was friends with a couple lol). They did some snooping around for me, and I found out why he lied to my face. The **** was married and those were his kids. I threw my ring at him and told him it was over and I knew about his other life. He apologized, but I broke up regardless. I drank and drank and drank. Bless another friend, he knew I believed in God. He showed me drinking was not the way out and helped me to quit. It still hurts, but after about 8 months I realized it wasnt really love. I met a terrific guy a year after my break up, and I'm still dating him. This winter will mark our 7 year anniversary. He has been hurt in the past too, so we are both taking the time to be slow.
One thing I do when I'm depressed, I write. I do free lance poetry. That is poetry that doesnt rhyme. Sometimes I make it rhyme. Also maybe find an activity you can do to keep yourself distracted.
Long distance relationships are hard too honey. I live 5 hours away from my man. We see each other every couple weeks, and we call every day, email every day. Sometimes we even fall asleep with our phones left on in the night since we both use speaker phone or ear pieces on the cell. Thank goodness we have unlimited mobile to mobile! It is nice though when you first wake up hearing "hi baby".
DX: Wegener's Disease, Migraines, Diabetese Type II, PCOS, Lactose Intolerant, Benign Heart Murmer, Depression, Asthma, Asperger's Syndrome, Necrotizing Gramultous Inflamation in eye, A.D.D., Acid Reflux, Tumor Behind the Eye, Carpal Tunnel, Fibromyolgia, Clasterphobic, Arthritis
Medications: Tri Nessa, Percocet, Metformin, Prilosec, Protonix, Zantac, Advair, Cingulair, Albuterol, Calcium + Vitamin D, Pro-Air, Pepcid, Rolaids, Zofran, Compuzeen, Refresh Plus Eye Drops
PRN: Epi-Pen, Albuterol Nebulizer, Benedryl
Taking Lorazepam (Ativan) on Radiation Days