First welcome to the forum, I'm sorry to hear about
the accident and how it affected you for the last 4 years. I'm just wondering apart from depression and the emotional trauma you went through, was there any physical issues after the accident? Also I'm sorry to hear about
the break-up with your girlfriend and hope in time you can get over it, and find someone else to fill your life with joy.
Now 4 years passed and you were expecting things to get better, or to stop being so bad, but they didn't and your disapointed about
that right? I can understand how you feel, but you should not get depression get the best of you. on here, many of us went through a lot of bad times and decided to fight back and not just accept or wait for things to happen. you need to take some initiative and do the logical steps that can help you get out of where you are, like what frances, rania and others have suggested you need to think about
seeing maybe a psycologist/psyciatrist or doctor that can first asses the situation and possibly give you medication or some directions on how to better yourself.
Please, you have to consider getting the help, when my uncle noticed I had depression in 2001 he spent a whole year until he was able to convince me to seek help, in 2002. Now I really regret that I delayed the diagnosis but what happened has happened, I was so stubern I didnt want to admit that I was depressed because it felt like something shamefull, and I was worried that if others knew about
it, but the good thing is the doctor will keep things discrete and not tell anyone about
it. I only told my boss about
it when I felt I was comfortable about
it. so swallow that pride and do something logical, get help.
Good luck to you, and I hope you decide to come back and tell us more about
you or how you are doing, peace!
Former Addict of Online Video Games ( MMORPGs ) , Sober since April 6th 2008
Diagnosed with Major Depression since 2002