Hi everyone I haven't been here in a while. I'm not really feeling so much depressed but I've been lonely, not knowing what to do with myself and feeling blah. When we came back from our trip I was still on a happy streak for a couple of weeks, was actually feeling ok with the way life was, almost like just being in the moment and not worrying about
the future. I started selling all my baby stuff and other misc items, that was making me happy, it was actually fun and nice to make the extra money. It just seems when being ok and feeling happy start drifting away I begin to worry. I know we can't be happy all the time but my fellow friends you know what I mean. I'm just so tired of not being steadily ok. I don't know if some of you remember the friend I met in my neighborhood, we would meet once or twice a week to let the kids play and we would have eachothers company. Well the last time I saw her everything was normal, just told her to let me know about
the following week. I never heard from her and I ended up emailing her last Friday to see how she was and that I'd always be up to do something, well I still haven't heard from her. It's basically been 2 weeks. So I automatically start thinking it's me. So it's been hard not being able to do something with someone. I get frustrated at myself because when I make plans with someone I have no problems getting ready and getting me and my son out. But how come it's so hard for me to leave when it's just me? I feel let down because I kind of relied on someone else to make my life a little better. I'm tired of not having anyone I can talk to or be around. I had plans to go to school but I seriously can't figure out nor to I feel like it what I want to do! I know school will be good for me, I actually have plans to not take online courses depending on what I qualify for with the pale grant and all. I'm hoping to put my son in daycare so I can go take the classes. I just need to be around people and get my mind and body working. I hate coming down from being ok for once! I've been on effexor for 2 weeks now, I haven't had any problems but I just don't know what to think anymore. I wonder if it's just me, is it the medication, why can't I just be a happy person! I've just been feeling so mute lately......One thing I can say that has enlightened me, my son started potty training last sunday, to my surprise he's been doing really well! It enlightened me because I didn't realize how rewarding potty training is for the parent lol!!! It was something I was dreading but the fact that he was ready, made it all so easy!!! Thanks for listening!
Sought help Jan 2009
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