I’m sorry you’re feeling lonely and ‘blah’ these days. It would be so great if we could be on an even keel and anticipate feeling good, or at least “steadily ok” as you put it, but life is so unpredictable, and full of ups and downs. And so are our moods, especially when we have tendencies towards depression.
I’m sorry about
what happened with your friend. I never understand why people just let things drop like that, instead of taking two minutes to email and say that they’re not up to it, too busy, overwhelmed by other people or things, etc.. I guess sometimes people get caught up in their own stuff and don’t take the time to put themselves in the other person’s shoes, and think about
how their silence might affect that other person.
The important thing is that you don’t beat yourself up over it, or assume that it’s something you said or did. There are a million possible reasons why this friend has not contacted you, and thinking that it’s you is so damaging to your self-esteem. Sometimes we’re not meant to be with a person at certain times or for certain reasons, whether it be a friend or relative or romantic partner, and we don’t always understand what those reasons are. Just remember to tell yourself frequently throughout the day that you are a kind, loving person, and a good friend, and someone will come into your life to be a good friend to you, too.
You mentioned that you have been taking Effexor for two weeks. It’s been a long time since I’ve taken A.D.s, but I think many of them can take up to 6-8 weeks to take full effect. Perhaps someone else here can comment on that, but you might want to give the meds a little more time to get going.
Also, I wonder if there are any play groups or mommy-child activities in your community that you could attend…..either through a school or church or other organization. That might be just the ticket for you, to get you out of the house with your son and meet some new people.
Congrats on the potty training!!! It’s great that you two are having so much success with it. I hope that these milestones with your son are helping to lift your spirits and give you a feeling of success.
I wish you the very best, and hope that things will get better for you. (((hugs)))
Living one day at a time.