I was abused for years by my step father. I've had several surgeries in the last few years due to internal damage. I found out last year that it was nothing short of a miracle that I carried a child full term...my only child who is such a blessing to me.
I've just gone thru another major set of surgeries. I had an appt with him this week because I felt something inside. Sure enough another part is weakened....an area he repaired 5 yrs ago. At this time, surgery isn't an option (not that I want it, I just dont want to feel this anymore...I want to be fixed once and for all) I'm just so distraught. I'm still trying to heal from the last round of surgeries and complications, now this. How are you supposed to move on when there are constant reminders?
Sorry if I wasn't supposed to write stuff like this here.....I don't know if it was ok or not
Thank you for listening,
01/12/04 surgery to repair prolapsed bladder, partial hysterectomy
12/11/08 surgery to repair prolapsed intestines, bowel, rectum (enterocele, rectocele & intussusception)
12/12/08 surgery to find source of bleeding, hemotoma in muscle behind vaginal wall (down to 7 hemoglobin)
12/13/08 gelfoam embolism to stop bleeding (still at 7 hemoglobin)
12/30/08 surgery temp ileostomy and rectal stent due to rectovaginal fistula
03/18/09 surgery to reverse ileostomy.
Currently dealing with severe colitis, taking on a daily basis: 2 Canasa Supp, 4 packets of Questran, 2 Immodium tablets, 1000 mg Omega 3 tablet
PTSD, depression, migraine headaches, gastritis, colitis and anxiety disorder
~~Our greatest glory consists not in never falling, but in rising each time we fall~~
~~Dare to reach out your hand into the darkness to pull another hand into the light~~