I’m sorry you’re still having trouble sleeping. That can’t help but exacerbate the difficulties you’re having, and you certainly have my compassion. I am consistently amazed at how very different my perception of myself can be when I am sleep-deprived and run down, and I am supposing it may be the same for you. Have you spoken to the doc/clinician/group about
this? It’s a really important issue, and I hope you will be provided with some help for this.
I also hope you will be able to get back to the exercising soon. That’s another thing that affects my mood, so perhaps I’m projecting here. However, I do believe, for a lot of people, exercise can have significant benefits when it comes to improving mood and overall feelings of wellness. Not being able to do this, especially when you enjoy it, must be frustrating.
I know you said you are too tired to go outside, but I wonder if you could go for a walk around the block once a day, perhaps first thing in the morning, or at lunch time. I have started going for 15-20 mins every morning when I get up, while the coffee is brewing, and it makes me feel really good. I also do the same in the evenings, but for a longer spell, and listening to the birds and being around all the activity in nature really comforts me. It’s quietly inspiring to see so many little creatures going busily about
their course of living, doing what needs to be done, and just being what they are supposed to be. I guess they’re better at living in the moment than the rest of us, and that gives me pause for thought.
I’m glad you’re taking a break until the DBT is done. I hope this time of learning and practice will lift you up and give you hope. As always, you are in my thoughts and prayers. Thanks for keeping us posted.
"Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it." ~Jalal ad-Din Rumi