Yeah, I can understand why you don't want to put too much on your boyfriend because of him losing his job. Do you have someone else that you trust, like a friend or neighbour or someone at church or your job? Maybe you could even talk to your doctor, to see if he/she could get you some counseling to help you feel better....? I know it's hard to
open up to people sometimes, but it's really good to be able to share your problems and talk things out. I see a counselor, and she is really helpful to me.
"Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it." ~Jalal ad-Din Rumi