u are having a hard time, i am sorry that you are depressed, what may help is you and hubby talking things over with a counsellor, what is important is that you are happy, in life, in marriage, in work and in play, if not then u are doing things to appease others, your family, and subsequently they are not communicating, darn unfair in my book, esp as they played a key role in instigating the marriage! sounds like your family want all things rosey, and now that things are different they have somewhat turned there back on you. sorry don't mean to sound mean, i have a similar prob with my family, re major depression, psychosis, many, many hospitalisations, etc. i am the black sheep, not saying you are, but i think you know what i am saying.
sending love and compassion to you, communication is vital, keep posting, we care. healing energy and love to you. jamie, male, 37.