Do allow yourself to trust and love. Because even if we get hurt, atleast we have learned or have some type of knowledge that we got from the situation. So you do live and learn. Plus there are usually some fond memories what we can have from it.
We should do things because we want to, not because we feel that we have to. do them for enjoyment, not for perfection. I does sound to me like you are very hard on yourself. You expect perfectionism and if you 'fail' to meet that approval (that is yours), you go with all or nothing thinking and you feel like you have failed. And tell me if I am wrong, but I believe that you emotionally beat youself up for this.
Sweetie, if we expect ourselves to be perfect or the best at everything that we do. We are only settin ourselves for some majoy dissapointment. and the reason that I say this is because with the way that you feel, Nomatter how good it is, you won't perceive that way.
I would like to discuss this later if you want to. You can email me if you want to, my address is in my profile. Thhere is so muh more that I would like to get into wit hyou, but I am super tired right now. Like I said, email me if you want to, if not, we can continue on here, that way wyou will get others responses. And opinions.
I think once your mannor of thinking is changed around, you will learn how not to be so hard on your self. You have a lot of promise my friend. You are a work in progress. And we here at HealingWell would like to whitness all of it. We are here for you, nomatter what you decide to do.
Take care, havea good night,
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies