I am probably one of the same ole people, but I am here for you.
I remember last year when you had this dilema. But you made it through. And you will make it through again. It may not be much fun and a little uncomfortable (that is what they said about
my colonoscopy), but you will survive this too. Because we are here for you.
I don't think that you realize just how strong that you are Aurora. I think that you sell yourself short. You consoled your son during his time of crisis. You took over and helped him, so you can help yourself too. Though I know that we tend to neglect our own selves.
You know that you want your son's to be happy. You love them and want what is best for them. Well this seems like it is up there with the best. It sounds like they enjoy it and it only happens once a year. So you most likely put on your happy face and bid them well when they go.
So now you need to put on your happy self for you. And I know that you can do this, you do it for your sons. They will be gone the most three nights, right? Find three things that you could do in your spare time that you enjoy. Do that in the evenings when you feel most lonely. Whether it be something hard, or easy, messy, done outdoors. No matter what it is, I want you to do one thing each night to kill time. Atleast until it is time for you to go to bed. If you are anxious when you go to bed, I want you to play some of your favorite music. Something relaxing, no heavy metal or anything likt that. lol...
See if you can do this for me Aurora, if you can't, we will try to think of something else to help you get through. You can do this, and we can help you.
Take care my dear friend.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies