I’m really glad you came to post here, and I’m sorry for all the pain you’re going through. Physical pain is really hard to deal with, especially when it’s ongoing, and it can just wear you out, both physically and emotionally.
I know it’s hard to accept that we cannot change things over which we have no control. I wonder sometimes if that might be one of the hardest things we have to overcome as human beings, especially when it concerns people that we really care about
. Please try to realize that you are doing the best that you can, with all that you say and do. It’s true that there are things in life that we have to surrender to a higher power, and believe it or not, I actually find that comforting, knowing that someone else is at the wheel when I have exhausted my ideas and my efforts.
You mentioned that you are on meds, but that you are still having a lot of panic attacks. I wonder if you might need an adjustment in meds, or perhaps a different type of medication that might be more effective for you. Are your meds prescribed by a family doctor/general practitioner, or are you in some type of counseling? The reason I ask is because in my own life, I’ve actually had a lot more success with counseling than I have with meds, when it comes to anxiety and depression. I have especially had good luck with cognitive behaviour
al therapy, (CBT), and I wonder if you might consider looking into that. I know from others on this forum that there is an online program called “The Mood Gym” that is free of charge, where you can learn about
and practice CBT methods. Maybe that would be a helpful resource to you.
Please continue to come here and post to us. The forum has a lot of supportive and compassionate people on it who are happy to listen and offer words of comfort or advice. I hope you will come back and talk with us again.
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