I want to first make sure you are safe. We are all concerned about you. Is there anywhere safe you can go?
I am not sure where you are at but since you said university (it might help if you told us which country you are in) this is for UK:
We also want to get you interacting with people outside your family. Have you thought about summer school? Or working?
I have to admit I think some sort of personal counseling will help, but I think it absolutely has to be with the right counselor.
Obviously, the old one was not a good one for you, and it might take several to find one who feels like they fit to you. Please do not give up on it, it is hard to get out of the family patterns and memories without it.
You are not asking for anything that is unreasonable. You want a sense of self efficacy. You are on your way to getting it, and you even know the path to get there.
I wish your relationships could be more supportive, but I think you are realizing that sometimes you have to give yourself the support, that the people who should be giving it. I am so sorry that the boyfriend did not work out, but you know you have the strength to do this on your own. After all you are getting out of 20 years of the family indoctrination, and you are getting out to be successful. That is a good thing and that takes a heck of alot of strength.
This is a temporary problem (and you even have a path out it is just going to take a bit), and after next year you never have talk to them again.
Please try to find someone to help you deal with the loss you are enduring and the lack of family understanding and support you are feeling, because we physically cannot be there with you, and I would really like to have you have someone who is physically there. In the meantime please keep talking with us.
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