I can't do it anymore

 I just spent 10 minutes writing a post about my feelings...which was not easy to do!!!  I accidently pushed the wrong button and my post was gone!!!  I just can't win.  I am so tired and frustrated beyond compare.  I am not new at this...just been way for awhile.  I have been suffering from depression for 28 years..since I was 11 years old.  I have been to therapy and taken more medication than I can tell you.  I do ok for awhile, then its right back to square one!  I have nobody to talk to and every time I check the chat rooms there is no one there.  I am not sure what to do.  My mind does not work well and I am scared there is something very wrong with me.  I am afraid to live, but I am also afraid to die.  I need help!!!!! 

wordbird

I understand what you are going through, cause I am dealing with depression first hand.  For the last two years I have been seeing my shrink and seeing my therapist once weekly....I am taking three different meds, been in the hospital, can't handle life in general and its all sad to me cause I have two teenager that I would not dream of leaving, but yet the feelings are there...

 I went to a CBT group and will be starting a DBT group in October...I take one day at a time...I write down all my automatic thoughts and compare them each day...I journal and record my dreams.  Its very hard and some days I stay in bed most of the day in between my boys.  IF you want to talk you can email me at chillin39@cox.net and I would be happy to talk with you....maybe we can help each other... Tina