Hello and welcome to HealingWell. I am Kitt.
I have found the support, validation and encouragement that I receive here, to be so helpful and healing. I hope and trust that will be your experience as a member of the HW family.
I have a 26 year history of Anxiety and Depression. I have experienced any of the same feelings as you. I promise you it will get better and please do believe in yourself.
If you're depressed, you'll know exactly what it feels like, but putting it into words is rarely easy. To sum it up in one word, depression is Hell.
Depending on whether your are experiencing mild or major depression, the actual strength of the feelings will vary, but the principle is the same - a confusing maelstrom of powerful negative emotions makes everyday tasks seem pointless. You may feel permanently miserable, and although in many cases you realise that there's no logical reason to feel so low, there's very little you can do about it because the emotions in your head are so powerful
Depression is like going through day-to-day life, with nothing apparently wrong, but feeling as though every one of your closest relatives has suddenly died, leaving you totally alone. The experience often gets better in the late evening, but returns, just as strong, the following day. Quotes from depressed people compare the experience to;
a slow crawl through Hell
being a leaf in a strong wind
being trapped inside my own head
watching a film of my life
going through a dark grey shadow of life
looking over the suicide cliff
seeing the world through a plate of dark glass
being a kite in a hurricane - I daren't let go of the string.
Unless you have experienced these feelings it is hard to understand how another person with depression feels............thus the comments we get such as "Get a grip, get over it, what is wrong now?"
CBT Therapy is a great way to learn how to deal with your feelings.
Cognitive-behavioral therapy is based on the idea that our thoughts cause our feelings and behaviors, not external things, like people, situations, and events. The benefit of this fact is that we can change the way we think to feel / act better even if the situation does not change.
There is a free online CBT that you may want to look into........... You can work this program from home.
the MoodGYM Training Program:
Again a warm welcome and please do stick with us.
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