I’m glad you came to post here, and I’m glad you’re looking into therapy. It’s been a lifesaver for me, and I hope it will be a great experience for you, too. I know it’s hard to find the positives when things look bleak, and right now it seems like your life isn’t the way you want it to be. However, I can see several positives in your introductory post:
1) You have dealt with depression in the past, and have come through it before!
2) You have the smarts to get help for yourself, by seeing the doc for medication and by signing yourself up for therapy.
3) You have the desire to share with others (and I have already noticed your support to others on here).
4) You have a roof over your head, and someone who cares about
you (your mom) and friends who are still hanging out with you, even though they may not understand what you are going through.
5) You are a giving person by nature, always being there for the people who need you……..a rare and special trait, IMO.
I know it’s hard when others don’t understand, or think because you are depressed that you can’t handle things. I personally believe that people who deal with depression are some of the strongest of the lot. Obviously, you can handle the emotionally tough situations, if you’re able to visit others in the mental hospital and talk to people about
their problems all night on the phone. A lot of folks shy away from that level of
openness and commitment to other people. You should feel good about
who you are. The job situation and the living arrangements will come with time……and a good therapist can help you to work towards those things with manageable steps and appropriate action. You are not alone! There are lots of us here who understand.
"The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes but in having new eyes." ~Marcel Proust