hello Aurora, sorry to hear of the incident in the grocery store. it happens to all of us under certain situations, we end up doing something we are not proud of. if you choose to return to the store, I would recomend talking to the manager and just tell him you had a bad day and that you didn't mean what you said, and appologize. I don't think he would mind you coming back and I'm sure he will accept your appology if you decide to give him one.
I was having a bad day once, and like nightwish says sometimes the last straw effect makes you do something you won't normally do. it was a very hectic day for me and after working all day in the bank I had to go to the office for an urgent meeting but I could not find a parking anywhere near the office I kept circulating and it was very hot, and then I found a car getting out, so I stoped and signalled that I am going to enter the spot once the car is out, then suddenly another car comes by and steals the spot without any consideration he just jumps into the spot I was wating for. so I got out of the car and I tried talking to the guy nicely but he ignored me and I flipped , I felt a surge of adrenalin in my body and I was actually thinking about
hitting him, but instead thank god I only shouted at him for doing that, then I said some bad words to him, he returned by saying "you two" and he kept looking at me waiting for my next move, I stood still and tried to think about
what I'm doing, I know that this isn't me and the anger I am feeling in this situation was driving me nuts, it is good that I managed to control myself, I didn't appologize but I just backed off and went back to my car to find another parking spot, I kept thinking that I'm lucky that day I didn't do anything more than words, what could have happened if I tried to hurt him or stuff like that? I could have ended up in jail or something, there is a lot of possibilaties I guess.
So just know that you are not alone your not the only one who did something that your not exactly proud of , out of anger or stress sometimes we loose our mind and we may do something to regret for the rest of our lifes, it is good at least nothing serius happened to you and for me also, nothing that cannot be repaired anyway.
I hope you will get through these difficlut times you are going through now, good luck to you and your son :)
Former Addict of Online Video Games ( MMORPGs ) , Sober since April 6th 2008
Diagnosed with Major Depression since 2002