Wordbird I'm glad you talked to your roommate and friends about what you're going through. That must have been really hard. Do you mean they asked you to leave? as in move out?? Sorry that part isn't clear to me. I don't understand how they could ask you to leave if that is the case and as well asking to go especially when you told them what was going on??? Wow.
You not alone here, so keep posting, we'll all help you. Please find a therapist to talk to about your thoughts, depression and it will help you get better. Don't ever give up no matter how hard it is. You're alot stronger than you think!! I can feel that in your writing! You are a good mom, a good friend and a good person. Just right now you are not yourself and you need to allow yourself time to heal...No guilt, no beating up on yourself! I am thinking of you and sending you some good energy! Hugs!!