I deleted your other post being that they were the same. It is part of the rules, no duplicate posts.
I have to say that the alcohol is messing you up. It is a depressant and makes you depressed. Also drinking to the point of throwing up or blacking out is not good.
You maybe find more confidence when drinking. But it is a false sense of confidence. It isn't you. Well, maybe you, but drunk. Also you said that you get somewhat argumentive when you drink. That is no way to live.
You sound young, you have many years to party. So think about
that. Work on getting a career and building relationships while sober.
You might want to take counseling into consideration. You could explore why you want to get so drunk. I myself like to have a drink once in a while. But don't like the feeling of lack of control, so I do not get drunk. This can be done. But if I were you, I would seek counseling and quit drinking for a while until you can control the amount of alcohol that you drink. Not only are you getting irrational, sick and blacking out. You probably look foolish to your friends. Maybe they laugh at the time, but I am sure that they talk about
it later. Don't give them anything to talk about
. Seek help. And remember that we are here for you.
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