I don't know what to do anymore

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   Posted 6/18/2009 9:34 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi everyone i'm having such a bad day I woke up shaking due to my anxiety and panic attacks but i've also got depression really bad. I can't seem to see a light at the end of the tunnel. Everyone says i'm getting better but i don't see it. I feel so alone and so sad. I've been out of the psych hospital 7 days today and all I wanna do is go back and hide. I felt safe there I was doing a lot better there and then when I came home I started having crying episodes and panic attacks again but the crying is really bad because I feel like I'm never gonna get through this and I feel so alone and sad. I don't have any friends and a few family members they don't understand what i'm going through they try to reassure me but I still cry and feel so bad. That's why I got online to look for support i'm at my witts end I wanna get through this and feel better. I start with a new therapist today and see the Dr tomorrow. But i'm beginning to isolate again and I know that's not good. If anyone has any words of encouragement they would be greatly appreciated thank you for listening...April

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   Posted 6/18/2009 10:16 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi April,

I’m sorry you’re feeling so alone and sad right now. You came to a great place to talk, as I’m sure you know…..everyone here is really supportive and compassionate.

I think it’s natural to feel afraid when you leave the hospital….it’s a safe, controlled environment where you have people to check on you and talk to you about things. I know it’s hard for family members to relate when they haven’t been through it themselves, but it seems like your family members really care and want to support you in whatever way they can!

You say that everyone says you’re getting better, and that’s probably true, even if you can’t see it or feel it. It’s hard for us to be objective about our own situation. Believe that things are improving, and tell yourself, out loud if you need to, that you are getting better every day. Keep telling yourself that over and over, as much as you need to. It’s a positive affirmation for you, and you might be surprised how much comfort you can gain from focusing positively like that. You WILL feel better, and you must not give up hope!

I’m glad you’re seeing a new therapist today, and a doctor tomorrow, and I hope it goes really well. Please let us know how it goes when you feel up to it! Don’t give up, April…..you have the strength to do this, and you will get better, doing it one step at a time. (((hugs)))
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   Posted 6/18/2009 10:43 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi April,

I agree with what Raniah says. Often we can't see the forest for the trees. You probably are getting better but can't see it yet. You will though, so just be patient.

You will get lots of help with your therapy and doctor's appointments. Have faith in that. I know how hard it is right now for you, but don't give up. It does take time, but you will make it. You have already started the process even if you can't see that.

Coming here really helps too. People here understand how you feel and will offer support to you. Please keep trying and keep posting. You have come to a really good place.

Best wishes for a wonderful day.

Hugs, Karen
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gentleman k
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   Posted 6/18/2009 1:52 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi April

Very good advice from Raniah and Karen. I have had anxiety,panic attacks, and been diagnosed with depression. I am on Paxil and doing quite well with minimal side effects. It does take a little time to see improvement but things do get better. Hang in there and there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Keep us posted!

Good luck,
gentleman k

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   Posted 6/18/2009 6:30 PM (GMT -6)   
Hang in there sister.... know that you are not alone, and that even if you cant see the light at the end of the tunnel, its still there. I hope you feel better, I am thinking about you. peace

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   Posted 6/18/2009 9:55 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi April!
I just wanted to encourage you to hang in there. Progress is made little by little with these illnesses, so just keep putting one foot in front of the other & post here whenever you're looking for support.

hugs & prayers,
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   Posted 6/20/2009 4:50 AM (GMT -6)   
Hey there everyone.
All of my days are bad ones.I ve been suffering depression and anxiety sense i was a child. Its not till i was old enough to know what was going on that i knew something about me wasnt right. Im 30 now, and have hit rock bottom, and have been there for a long time. Ive been in denial and have continued to ignore and surpress how i feel. Im now about to see my fifth pychologist, and i just cant be bothered going through it all again....,i had just trusted my last therapist, but she decided t was best for me to see someone else who is more qualified.
I felt sad when it ended, because i actually liked her. I dont have any friends, i wouldnt know how to have a friend. People scare me.
Im lost and cant seem to see a way through this .
Anyway thats just a bit about whats going on with me.
Edit:  I am starting you a thread of your own..........Titled "All My Days Are Bad" -

Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 6/20/2009 6:55:41 AM (GMT-6)

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   Posted 6/20/2009 7:57 AM (GMT -6)   


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   Posted 6/21/2009 3:34 AM (GMT -6)   
hi april. understand the sancturary hosp provides. understand the tears too. when my lady passed, some yrs ago now i thought i wouldn't stop. we are here for you, yeah the family situation i also understand, i have had a lot of psych admissions, the vast, vast magority without anyone coming to my aid, hence i understand. beleive in you. keep strong, do what you can to distract your mind. keep posting, healing luv. jamie
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