Welcome to the forum. I’m so glad to know that you survived your cancer and the treatments, and that you’re in remission now. My mother had cancer of the brain, too, and experienced some tough side effects from the radiation as well. Although I don’t have personal experience with what you’re going through, I will try to help with some thoughts on your question.
I have found, through my own health struggles and changes to my abilities, that depression does seem to go along with it. It’s hard to accept a new lifestyle and new challenges, and not think about
what life was like before. The best thing I can do for myself, I find, is to focus on the things that I can still do, and make a list for myself (mentally or on paper) of the things in my life that I’m grateful for. I have found that I have a better appreciation of the so-called ‘small things’ in life, and I experience more joy now by spending time in nature, taking walks in the woods, seeing the beauty of the trees, the birds, the animals…..the quieter pursuits, if you will. I have to take more time to rest when I feel the need, which you probably experience too, by the sound of it, and I have learned to cut myself a bit of slack in that area, and not try to ‘do it all’ like I used to. I also try to be more
open with friends, and share things that I would have previously kept to myself. That kind of
openness is liberating, in a way, and having someone listen and just be there is really comforting to me.
Another really important thing for me has been counseling. I’ve had to learn some new coping skills, and learn to forgive and accept some things that have happened, and that has eased my burdens and my levels of stress, which has in turn benefited my health, too. I don’t know if you are in counseling now, or would consider it, but it might be helpful to you, too.
I hope you will come back and post some more with us. This is a great community of caring people, and talking things out can be really therapeutic. I wish you the best, Duck, and hope that you will continue to take good care of yourself.
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