For your first question, I have heard that a very sharp, non-serrated knife actually works better than a pill cutter. The other thing I’ve been told is that any slight dullness in a pill cutter blade will render it almost useless. From that info, I would gather that sharpness is the key. I don’t have to cut pills myself, so I am only going by hearsay on this. I feel like that’s a bit of a lame answer for you, but it’s all I’ve got at the moment!
For your second question, I first want to offer you my full support and my friendship. It’s really hard to face a season which you know to be difficult from past experience, and sometimes just the anticipation is enough to bring you down. It sounds like you would like to stay on the low dose of your med, and I can understand that. Your doctor is the one to best advise you on whether you need to increase your dose, but from a friend’s perspective, I would say if you can handle it, perhaps you should adopt a ‘wait and see’ approach, since (I’m assuming) you have found the summer time to be a time of depression even on a larger dose. Please correct me if I am wrong in this. I’m really hesitant to even suggest waiting, because I hate the thought of you feeling so low, but in my own experience, it can take some time to really figure out how much of a depressed time is due to internal influences, and how much is due to external influences. The remedies may be different in each case. Even more than your doctor, you are the best judge of your own feelings and sense of well-being, so take good notice of what your instincts tell you on this.
I think you have been an incredible source of love and support for your son during this time of grief and adjustment for him. I understand why you are concerned that your feelings of depression might affect your ability to counsel and comfort your son, and I can tell how rewarding it is for you to be able to help him at this time. I do wonder, as you have said in your post, if your conversations are bringing you down a bit, and I hope you won’t mind if I say that I hope you are keeping a balance between his needs and your needs. There is no question that your son is a very important person in your life, and that is how it should be. You are also a very important person in your life, Aurora, and you deserve as much love, care and support as your son, not only with your depression, but because the break-up that he has gone through has been a time of loss and grieving for you, too.
I know it has been tough with the job search and lack of being busy in recent times, and there’s something to be said for being busy to keep the depression at bay. I will apologize in advance to you, because my memory is kind of hit and miss with things sometimes, but I am not recalling what things you normally do in the summer. Perhaps it hasn’t been discussed a lot since my (fairly) recent arrival at the forum….I am not sure. However, if you could share with me what things you normally do at this time of year, maybe I could offer something in the way of helpful comments or advice. I truly would like to do anything I can to help, Aurora. As I said earlier, you have my full support.
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“Sadness is but a wall between two gardens.” ~Kahlil Gibran