Hello Chillin, im 15 years old and have suffored(sp) from depression for over a year now. Although i do not have kids and i have not been raped(im really sorry to hear that) i can relate to you tottally. And what uve read on the site is true, u should take it one day at a time. But sometimes you get in the state of mind that you cant control what you do. Im at this state a lot of the time unfortanetly, im on meds and have been for around half a year, i dont think they seem to help a lot. what i think helps the most is being with the people who you love. For me thats my girlfriend, when im around her i forget about everything band thats going on. I too am in therapy, i dont think that helps, i think getting out of depression is mainly a mind game, a game that im bad at. you must have the will to get out of it, and i dont have this will i speak of, i know it sounds hypocritical to say u have to have the will, when i dont. But im working on it, the thing that helps me the most like i said is when i talk with my girlfriendr and see my girlfriend, i tell her things i dont tell my mom. Ive cried with her, and im not one of those emotional guys, i wear black and i wear chains, but when i told her i cut myself and showed her i started to cry and so did she. But i think for you the best way for you to feel better about urself is to do as much as you can with your kids. so that they dont go through the same things that your going through. Because i can tell u, its extremely hard when your a teenager and going through depression, you remember how hard going through peurbity was, imagine that plus being depresed 24/7. I dont know if im the only one who feels this, but who knows. I wish the best of you and your family chillin.