Welcome aboard the HW Forums
. I hope you enjoy your stay here, and that we can be of any assistance.
The first big step to get over depression is accepting that you are depressed. So it seems that you have taken that first step, and I want to congratulate with that!
But I think I can see your dilemma. Either trying to make yourself happy while hurting others, or hurting yourself to keep others happy. No matter how hard it might seem, please see the good sides of it as well. You are a compassionate man, and that is something that matters. At least, I believe so, it might be different for you.
Anyway, as with most things, it usually ain't either A or B. Or moving South versus staying North in your case. There can be other ways. Maybe a short stay, for a month, or a couple of months, can help you. You might be able to visit your old friends, hang around with them for a while, and feel refreshed. And when you return to the North, you might have a good connection with them, so that they will come visit you as well and bring some of that Southern lifestyle with them when they do.
On another level, it seems that you don't fully love your wife. Please correct me if I am wrong, but you are still longing for another woman. And though that is OK in itself, it does make the choice a harder one. If you want to try to love your current wife more, relationship therapy might help. Also, I think that a counsellor in itself can help you a lot. Have you been visiting one?
Whatever the outcome, I wish you all the best MVR!
Take care my friend,
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