I have been feeling extremely out of sorts the past few months as I think that my depression has been dominating everything I do. For the first time in a long time, I am finding that nothing in my life is making me happy. I am not sure if I told you guys or not but there have been several changes in my treatment. My doctor retired and I have no "formal" way or doctor to help me. I am finding that it is so hard to fight anymore and I am wore out trying to smile everyday.
The next couple weeks are going to be extremely hard for me as I try to find options of treatment. What makes it really hard is that I am alone in this fight, although people are in my life, noone tries to understand and they pull away. That is nothing new, just really tired of the day to day wishing. HOWEVER.....FAITH HAS NEVER LEFT ME AND POSSIBLY THE ONLY THING THAT GIVES ME STRENGTH TO DO ANOTHER DAY..
I dont think that I remember my depression being so powerful. I think it might be because no one understands.
I will try to post more, I just dont even have energy to do that.
I miss your love I miss your touch, But I’m feeling you everyday
" God not only sends special angels into our lives, but sometimes He even sends them back again if we forget to take notes the first time!"
Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994
" We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
Luciano de Crescenzo