First off, the worst thing to do is to consider ending things, because as it seems like a quick fix, its far from that. The truth is, there is no quick fix. But, there is a fix. Its hard to deal with, I know. I deal with it as well, like many MANY others on here and everywhere in the world.
Obviously, my first suggestion is anytime you are thinking of harming yourself, call someone, whether it be 911 or a friend, or simply go to the ER. My next suggestion is talking to a doctor. A GP probably wont help you very much, mine never did. But finding a therapist is a great idea. Or a psychiatrist because if needed they can prescribe meds. (assuming you havent done any of this already since I dont know)
But mostly, talk about
it. The second worst thing you can do is to ignore it and not talk about
it. Which is where we can help you. Vent about
everything. Anything that may be bothering you, whatever. Talk about
how you feel. You may want to try to do things like go out, or whatever. (that usually doesnt work for me, but it has helped others)
But, my point is that if you cant shake the depression and it affects your life and has been persistent.... DO something about
it. Dont wait. Dont ignore it. Dont hide it. Dont hold it all in. Depression is an illness and nothing to be ashamed of or anything. But, you really need to do something about
it. Major depression usually doesnt go away by itself. It may take time and effort and it can be frustrating, but in the end if it gets better and you can live your life the way you see fit.... by all means, its WORTH the effort and time.
I hope this helped some. I always feel like I am trying to help other people so much that I forget to take my own advice! But, Im still fighting for my recovery so..I hope this helps just a bit and I hope you can shake the depression and get back to living your life. Take care and remember that we are here for you if you need to talk.
Lyrica (15 months-quit Feb. 09), Paxil (10 months-quit 6-4-09), Started Cymbalta 6-6-09, Rozerem, Melatonin Fibromyalgia, Depression, Anxiety, Panic Attacks-currently in therapy-new pdoc-possible Borderline Personality Disorder... "Cracks
in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
"Sometimes it is best to forget
what you feel
what you deserve