Hi Beautifully Chaotic,
I like the suggestion about
talking to a therapist....it's helped me a lot with trust issues and pain from past relationships, and maybe it would help you, too. In case you are not aware, there is also a Bipolar Disorder forum on this site, so you may get some different answers there. Of course, you are more than welcome to stay here with us, too! Please keep posting, and let us know how you're doing.
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