Pastoram, I know how hard it is to be depressed. I am at a very low point myself right now and my meds have just been upped. Have you considered talking to a different psychiatrist and getting another opinion? If you feel this dr. is not helping you and you don't care for the ideas she has for your treatment I think you should find someone you can have a consultation with to see where you should be with your depression. I know how hard it is to make decisions and even do the everyday little things. Sometimes you just have to push yourself really hard to get control of your life again. If I didn't like the dr. I would definitely look around for someone else for help. There is no rule that says you have to stay with the same dr. especially if you don't like her or if you feel she is not givng you the right advice. Please post again and let us know what you have decided to do. I wish you the very best and hope things start to work out better for you.