hi challenge done, my name is jamie, i am 37, male and have lived with depression and other complex psychiatric illnesess for over 20 yrs. masking, we all do it, sometimes to save face, sometimes to hide, sometimes because the energy to show ourselves is tiring. being depressed is depressing. your religion, screwing you up, if okay can you explain. is it forced? facing things in a fast paced adult world can be brutal, i assume nothing, albeit i understand depression. i strongly suggest you see your doctor, he/she can on refer you to people whom can be of help. if you are not taking medication, then this may well be of benefit to you. describing your situation to your doc will aid in receiving the right treatments and assistance. oh, normal is a word i stay away from as i can not define it, yeah i understand talking to people whilst in panic or if talking to people will cause an attack, thus shying away.
hey, i admire your courage in posting. the hw community is fantastic and i know you will hear from others soon. stay strong and keep safe. jamie.