thx to you all. today i saw the lady, she is having trouble understanding. i put everything in perspective. so for the meantime we are cooling it. from what she says she is worried about
leaving home, having her carers and routine. i informed her nicely that i want a relationship without all the negativity, conformity and the pressures that i am under by family, friends and workers. it is apparent that her mother is very worried, re: past history with men. yes she had some very sad and disturbing experiences. seeing her today was hard, i still love her and i told her that by cooling it we have a better opportunities for a proper and fulfilling relationship. she understands. she told me that she loves me also. i said we have time on our side, i said you need to think about
what you want, and when you are READY i will step up. i said when you are ready that you HAVE to fight for me and the relationship also. so am i a complete nong for the backflip, nah just a stubborn bugger who is realizing his potential and fightin' the good fight. so for now we are cooling it. thx jamie.
PS GEM. VERY VERY HAPPY FOR YOU. PROUD THAT YOU DRAINED THE POISON!! KEEP FIGHTIN' AND BE HAPPY ALWAYS. VEERY INSPIRING, ME HERE FOR YOU TOO MY FRIEND!!