Yes it sounds like you are depressed. And as Jamie said, seeing a pdoc or a counselor is the answer. Either that or get some self help books. But talking to a professional would be the best thing.
I am glad that you have come here to open up. This is a good start. But we are not professionals by any means, we are just others who have depression too. So seeing a professional would be the best thing for you.
Being bored it a tough one. I rarely ever get bored. There is always so much to be done. Do not hate yourself. You are an improtant person, worthy of love, and you need to learn to love yourself. That can be done. We all can love ourselves.
Keep trying, and I am glad that you came here to post.
Best wishes to you,
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