I need some advice. I am pretty stressed out, with work and family. Several weeks ago my dad had surgery for a hernia. He came home the next day. He ended up in the ER 4 times in less than 2 weeks after coming home. The first 3 were related to his surgery. The last time he had a minor heart attack. He is back home now. He is getting forgetful. Since I manage an apartment complex, I am suppose to be living out there. I do. However since the first part of June I have been staying at his house. It is about
a half hour drive each way to work each day. That is not too bad, and my sister has been in town to help out. She will be going back home this weekend. I worry about
when I am at work that he will call me and I will have to leave. I have been having stress with my job for a while. I love my job. Both my t and my pdoc say that when I leave work, I need to forget about
work. Easier said than done. I love my bosses and they consider me family but I feel like I am disapointment to them. I go over to their house often. When ever I do or talk to them on the phone all they want to do is talk shop. It is ok some of the times, but sometimes I would like to talk about
other things. She and I sometimes have a different outlook on life, and different ideas, and thoughts. Sometimes she gets upset with me or disagree's with me. For example, I mentioned I got an e-mail from someone on facebook that I did not recognize but
opened it to see who it was before confirming I knew her. It turned out it was a high school classmate of mine. My boss told me I should not
open those type of things. Not sure why. Another example was today, she called me just as I was ready to leave for a dr. appt. I was in a hurry and was talking fast. I lost my train of thought and she seemed upset and I said I was fine and she insisted I was not fine and that I should not be driving. That h as happened one time before. I know what condition I am in. I appreciate her concern but it bothers me when she (or others) tells me how I am or how I feel when they have no idea. I do not know how to handle it. I tend to get upset and sometimes end up in tears. I grew up being told that if anything happened between me and anyone else was my fault. I am me. I have ADHD and get flustered easily. I do my best but never feel like I am good enough because everyone else knows how I am doing or feeling and I don't. That just makes things worse. I live in constant fear that I will lose my job (despite I have been told that will not happen), live in fear of doing something wrong. I don't know how to handle this at times. I am not really sure I am making much sense.