Trust me on this one please, you are going to be OK. I know that feeling of lonliness and being stuck inside your head but you must break free.
May I suggest a few things that might help? Have a plan for those long evenings when you feel alone with your thoughts. I always keep books I want to read or silly movies that I know will make me laugh. Sometimes a chick flick that even makes me cry is good as the tears are different then the ones of frustration you feel with your depression.
Do you belong to a church group, do any volunteer work? I have a casual job during the school year working with children and they really keep me busy for the days I am with them. Anything available to you that you could volunteer to do?
When you are experiencing a great deal of pain and loss, your self esteem takes a very severe blow. Perhaps we can help you build up your self esteem and you will be able to ward off the depression better if you feel good about yourself.
Believing in yourself is the cornerstone to improving your self esteem. And you can do this by starting out small. List a few things that have made you proud about yourself or things that you have accomplished that you can honestly describe as a success. I know you have many and remember they do not have to be huge accomplishments.
Everyone has at least a few things that they can be proud of. Realize just how much better your life will be if you allow yourself the gift of having a high level of self esteem. Realize that your relationships will improve and that you can begin to achieve what you want if you really feel good about yourself.
We all believe in you and want you to get better so make that list and keep adding to it everytime you remember something you have accomplished in your life.
Start with writing down that you reached out to the members of this forum looking for help. That was a huge step and a great accomplishment.
Gentle Hugs and Prayers,
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