Tired of dealing with this illness

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Date Joined Jul 2004
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   Posted 10/3/2004 12:35 AM (GMT -6)   
I 've posted here a few times - it seems that people don't check in that  often - is there another site that people are posting to?
I am having a hard time recovering from a major depressive relapse ( happened in July and spent a month in the hospital).  I was released in August and things went well for a month and then I had a few really bad days and cannot seem to reach that good level again - part of the problem I think is the combination of drugs - The really severe depression has lifted but the side effects of some of the drugs now are causing trouble - it seems like I am in another world until early evening and then the fuzzy/clouded head feeling leaves.  It is so difficult to deal with sometimes - it is so hard to stay positive when you feel like you are heading in the right direction ie the depression is lifting but then you run into difficulty with the medication - it would be so nice to be able to function normally -it is hard not being productive as I am a Type A personality.  Anyway any words of encouragement would be appreciated and if there are other sites that people are using more frequently I would like to be part of that.

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Date Joined Feb 2004
Total Posts : 1782
   Posted 10/3/2004 2:18 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Hurricane

I'm not sure about other sites, I dont really post here often, I usually post on the Crohns section of the board but lately have been having some problems with depression so have posted here a few times.

Sorry to hear you are going through such a difficult time, what meds are you on? Would it not help if perhaps you could take them at night instead?

I really hope things start improving for you soon, if you need to chat dont hesitate to contact me on my email.. melderek1@telkomsa.net or on my yahoo messenger.. melcaitie.
God please grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,courage to change the things I can and the Wisdom to know the difference.

Regular Member

Date Joined Jun 2003
Total Posts : 59
   Posted 10/3/2004 3:34 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Hurricane,
I've recently come back to this board after being away for a year or so. I've had problems with anxiety and depression for most of my adult life, 18 to now at 54. It's good to hear that you are out of the deep depression. But I understand trying to find meds that work for you and not against you. I have not yet found any of the popular anti-depressants that work well for me so I am on a couple of old ones, amitriptyline and ludiomil. It's the best combo I have been able to find. Remeron worked pretty well for me, but not quite as well as the current combo I am on.
I've been struggling lately, but quit practicing the CBT skills I had been working at for over 3 years last December when I started working again. So now I am working on the skills again. Until last December I hadn't worked in about 7 years. The job I had was doing taxes which didn't last very long and I haven't worked since though I have applied several times. My sleep pattern has been messed up for a long time and I am still trying to get it under control. It's been a real struggle to keep myself sane. I've got a son who is a junior in college and a wonderful wife who has kept us afloat financially for all this time. I feel like a total and complete failure sometimes. Sometimes the failure is so overwhelming I think what's the use. Then I work with the CBT and work out of that. One good thing that has happened over the last 13 months is that I am off of all anti-anxiety meds which I had been on since 1977 and my amitriplyline is down 60% over the same time frame. I owe it all to CBT plus being on meds that enabled me to work on myself.  I doubt I could have worked on myself without being on the meds. I hope you will hang in there and keep on looking for solutions. It does get very discouraging sometimes, but those times don't last. For me my own negative way that I look at my situation sometimes cause most of my problems, all of them actually. Reframing makes all the difference for me.
I hope you figure out a solution for yourself. Take care and don't beat yourself up. You are doing the best you know how to. Give yourself credit for trying and love yourself unconditionally, no matter what the circimstances are.

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Date Joined Aug 2004
Total Posts : 472
   Posted 10/4/2004 5:01 AM (GMT -6)   
Welcome to healingwell, sorry i haven't responded earlier, I hate you've been so down but it's good you have come up some even is things are hazzy. as for the meds. if i could remember what in the heck i'm takeing i'd tell you......it just changed cause my last stuff didn't work well and the stuff before that gave me disturbing thoughts(worse than i normally have)....when i get home........well wait a sec.....Welbutrin XP...i think that's it.....and some kinda anti-anxioty......o_0.......well this afternoon i'll be able to tell ya for sure....i can tell you since i've been takeing this combo i've been feeling much better.....the memory thing..well, i've been dealing with that for ALONG time now.....sorry....well, i need to go to work now......take care, ..JohnD
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