Does it ever go away?

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Date Joined Jun 2009
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   Posted 7/24/2009 6:06 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Guys,

I was started on zoloft and ativan in mid april for depression and anxiety. By the end of June I was starting to feel a lot better, and began the weaning off process of ativan (which i did not want to be taking daily). After completely being off ativan for 2 weeks, i noticed my depressed, hopeless mood began to return. I have not had a panic attack since i was started on the medecine (thank god!), however i have felt the return of intrusive thoughts, and an even weirder symptom of always having a song stuck in my head.

This is making me very depressed because all I want is a clear mind. I am 26 years old, and have never suffered from depression before (except a few bouts of situational -do to break ups, adjusting to college life etc). But this just doesn't seem to go away. I was doing so well for a month, but the last week all i do is cry. The doctor has begun a cross taper to Lexapro, and I am hoping this helps...

I feel so hopeless about the future. I go to work, come home and head straight to my bed. I look forward all day to being in my bed. I have wonderful friends and an awesome boyfriend, but find it so hard to pretend to want to go out with them on the weekends. No one understands why I am depressed, everything to them is perfect on the outside.

Will my feelings ever go away? I feel so hopeless. Knowing that this was probably caused by a chemical imbalance makes me petrified. I wanted to marry my boyfriend but don't even see the point anymore, i feel "ruined." And of course i am petrified of post partum...i just see no hope for the future.

Thanks for letting me vent...any thoughts/similiar experiences would be great!

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Date Joined Apr 2007
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   Posted 7/24/2009 9:29 AM (GMT -6)   
Welcome to HealingWell and the Depression Forum. I promise you that you are not "ruined".  Depression is a nasty disorder but you will recover. 
Coping with depression can be challenging. Depression makes it hard to engage in the behavior and activities that may help you feel better. Talk to your doctor or therapist about improving your coping skills, and consider these tips to cope with depression.

Simplify your life. Cut back on obligations when possible, and set reasonable schedules for goals.

Consider writing in a journal to express pain, anger, fear or other emotions.

Read reputable self-help books and consider talking about them to your doctor or therapist.

Don't become isolated. Try to participate in normal activities and get together with family or friends regularly. I know that bed looks like a great place to hide but do try not to isolate.

Take care of yourself by eating a healthy diet and getting sufficient sleep.

Stay focused on your goals. Recovery from depression is an ongoing process. Stay motivated by keeping your recovery goals in mind. Remind yourself that you're responsible for managing your illness and working toward your goals.

Learn relaxation and stress management. Try such stress reduction techniques as meditation, yoga or tai chi. Consider therapy.  It has helped myself and many others here in HealingWell.

Structure your time. Plan your day and activities. Try to stay organized. You may find it helpful to make a list of daily tasks.

Don't make important decisions when you're in the depths of depression, since you may not be thinking clearly.

Most of all believe in yourself that you will overcome this bout of depression.

Again a warm welcome to HealingWell.



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Date Joined Feb 2009
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   Posted 7/24/2009 12:19 PM (GMT -6)   
Kitt's response is totally awesome!

I only want to add the following. I struggled terribly with the idea of taking medicine, seeing it as a crutch. I finally accepted that one of the contributing factors of my clinical depression was due to a bio-chemical imbalance. The medicine doesn't make you happy, it just brings your brain chemistry into balance. If you can think of it this way, you may find it easier to accept being on the medicine for a time.

During that time, use all of the things that Kitt recommends to help yourself.

You mentioned intrusive thoughts. You might also use resources like Mood Gym (free, private, on-line) for cognitive behavior therapy. The medicine stopped me from doing something tragic, but didn't do anything to help the nasty internal dialog. By using CBT, I am finally able to identify my warped thinking when it starts up and to combat it. This has made a huge difference in my life.

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   Posted 7/25/2009 9:47 AM (GMT -6)   
CBT therapy is wonderful. Are you seeing a therapist at this time? There is a book called "Feeling Good" By doctor Burns. It is easy to find on the internet. You might concider reading that. But therapy would really help you.

I am glad that you are on good meds. Things will get better, it just takes a little time. And in the meantime, keep posting, as we are all here for you.

Hugs, Karen
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Date Joined Mar 2009
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   Posted 7/25/2009 10:41 PM (GMT -6)   
abc, maybe a mood stabiliser with more effectiveness may help. see doc! kitt's suggestions as well!!!! things to help de-stress, me my metal music, full bore, as it is on now!! hoping you feel better soon. with compassion. jamie

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   Posted 7/26/2009 3:02 AM (GMT -6)   

you've been given great advice, just wanted to touch base and let you know that it gets easier.

Take care and be well,

Maz XX

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