Hi Aurora. I am sorry that you still haven't been feeling well because of your asthma. I know that when I am sick it makes everything else seem so.... much worst. Currently, I am not as cooped in as you are, but I do spend a good bit of time in my house with my children and also alone when they are at their fathers house. And when I am alone I get even more stressed and depressed because of the issues I am dealing with in my own life. Unfortunately, my mind tends to get stuck in overdrive.
Do you have any hobbies that you could get yourself involved in around your house that might make the time seem like it is going so much faster? Recently, out of necessity, I had to paint some furniture to put into my younger daughters room. I was quite surprised when I realized how much I enjoyed both the sanding and painting of it as I was so focused it took my mind off of everything else. I was actually relaxed.. and more so than I have been in a long time. ...Just one thought for you.
Also, I have also noticed that a lot of people have dropped off of chat now that summer has begun. It has been disappointing as there used to be a regular group of us that always chatted at the same time every night. While I am still friends with them, our summer schedules have made it difficult to meet up. But I am around quite a bit checking the forums for a new friend to chat with, so if you are ever lonely just let us know in a post that you're available in the chat room. I would be thrilled to come on and chat with you. And especially during the two weeks in August that you will be alone, perhaps you can organize and post your own chat time to try to get everyone together.
It sounds like you feel quite alone right now. But there are many of us out here who have followed your posts and replied - and do care about you. So maybe you are not as alone as you think.
You are certainly entitled to your own pity party right now. I for one understand that. But maybe if we all put our cyber hands together we can help each other feel better.
Take care and (((((((((((((hugs))))))))))).