So, I havent been on in a while because I was switching meds when the other made me sick. I havent had any noticeable side-effects from prozac.. but I dont think that it is working. Considering how terrible I feel...
I have had alot bothering me lately. Normal things, life, parents, school... just whatever... I have been really low lately.. I just celebrated my 18th birthday Tuesday and yet, I still feel horrible. Im not sure it was much of a celebration, just a few friends over, not that I talked much anyways... I got a new tattoo.. Chinese symbol for "hope" on my wrist... Although now, my therapist thinks that my tattoos are just because I feel down and need pain, she said I cant get anymore until Im feeling better... no really, she told me that. Not true, I just like them, this one is special... thats all..
Anyways, I dont know what to do.. this med isnt helping either.. I was hopeful.. but, its been about 4 weeks I suppose and nothing.. I see my pdocs nurse soon, but he said we would up the dose if it wasnt doing anything... Im not sure changing the dose would even help...
Is this what treatment resistant depression is like? Because nothing I have tried has helped and I feel so discouraged... and very down.. Honestly, all I have had lately is negativity.. and its getting so old.. I just want it all to go away.. And college is starting soon, my therapist brought up a very good point, she says Im either going to get a hold on things, or Im going to fall completely apart....she asked my opinion, I said probably the second one.
So... I really dont know what to do or say.. I just need to get a lot out... the right way, ya know. What should I do?
Lyrica (15 months-quit Feb. 09), Paxil (10 months-quit 6-4-09), Started Cymbalta 6-6-09(horrible effects on me), Rozerem, Melatonin Fibromyalgia, Depression, Anxiety, Panic Attacks-currently in therapy-new pdoc-possible Borderline Personality Disorder... "Cracks
in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
"Sometimes it is best to
what you feel
what you deserve